I will succeed!

WTF WTF WTF.

U damn, no good piece of shit had the audacity to doubt my ability to deliver on big projects! Do you know how clueless all of you are. The crap someone is able to sell u because u just didn't bother to do your research.

Listen up to me u a'hole. I will succeed. I will do well. And you know what your work helped, but ultimately I will succeed because I rock. GOT THAT! Cause I rock!

Believing in myself when corporate world doesnt

Many of all the consulting offers I am getting from my outreach efforts are leaving me frustrated. The taking advantage--inadequate or no pay offers, demeaning what I offer, and the talks of how my past successes were low hanging fruit are jarring my awareness. BS u little good for nothings. I am amazing and great at what I do. I will reach heights of achievement. And then you will wonder what made you miss it. And even if you don't trust me I will get better results than you ever dreamed of in you puny little offices.

I believe in myself and my power. I value myself as higher than anything these guys could pay me.

Get network goal up in 3 months.

Emotions tearing you? Love yourself.

Just had a great morning of contrast and resultant expansion. About 40 mins ago I was not flowing with the expansion. Meditating did not help me flow either. Turns out my ego was pulling me apart. A part of me wanted to believe I was right in behaving a certain way while that another part of me was guilting me for. The thought process that allowed this conflict was that sometimes one has to take a hard and difficult stance for justice. And the emotional after tearing is just part of that decision.

But today I realized that it doesn't have to be. Emotions are a result of thoughts. An emotion of guilt should be examined for any teaching it gives regarding whether an action should have been avoided or been better in some way. Once that examination has been made. Love and trust yourself. You are not bad. You are simply learning. Tell yourself to remember to use that learning in the next situation and then enjoy all that you have in this moment and all that you are doing and planning to do in this moment.

Love yourself. There is never a need for suffering.

Positive thought in times of negative emotion

Feelings of anxiety, fear, anger rise from a sense that the world and our place in it is not okay. That everything is chaos. That we are merely individuals alone in this vast sea of life being and pushed and pulled by other players in our life. This feeling of lack of control makes us show up in our lives as smaller, less confident, comfortable, optimistic presences. Since inner beliefs and talk take time to change it is helpful to remind ourselves of the better feeling and more empowering beliefs that come from our inner centers, the source of love and connectedness to God and regularly dispeling the beliefs that are in each fear contrary to this:

• The world is a beautiful user friendly universe. The darkness and absence is more than outweighed by the light.
• No one can keep you away from your light, the decisions you want to make that feel good and work for you. Feeling that they can is a remnant of earlier more helpless phases of personal and evolutionary development
• Your life is a reflection of your thoughts. A thought that collects the data of your experience and judges it as negative is just as realistic as one that judges it as positive. Due to our strong consciousness of the laws of the physical universe based on that which we gather from our senses we focus on action as the focal point of creation in our lives. From the vibrational perspective of the universe the order is a bit different: thought takes precedence over word, which takes precedence over action.

Three tips to more effectively dealing with criticism

Forgive the critic right away, even those who have bad intentions.

Not forgiving them hurts your own ability to feel good and focus on that which you want.

Think about the potential for truth

If you can find any use it as feedback to change your behavior positivity. Monitor your progress. They have given you a gift. Thank them and the universe for it.

Don’t dwell on the giver of criticism, his or her impression of you, or the possibility of future criticism

Dwelling simply makes one depressed. Instead think of the beauty in them and specifically the beauty in their criticism. Regardless of anything else a human being's ability to persist in using tactless methods to change behavior is just as amazing as their ability to change behavior tactfully by using kind words at the right moment.

How we hold ourselves back

Yesterday while observing a period of anger in another I noticed a strong negative vortex within me. Later when I started to examine and release my negative emotion I realized that it fell in three categories: anger, annoyance, and fear.

Anger at the thought of unfairness. At strongly feeling that this person is yelling and showing himself to be a bigger animal in order to manipulate the object of anger to not acting out of his own understanding of his greater truth but instead to appease the aggressor by acting according to his will.

Annoyance at the aggressor’s choice to not learn from countless reminders he has received in life that manipulation is never the path to mutual happiness or the brighter free allowing world he says he wants to create.

And fear. The aggressor is choosing to show himself to be a bigger animal to get the object of anger to act out of fear. In line with this method the aggressor may intensify to higher and higher levels of maliciousness to reach his aims. Fear at the very real possibility of harm when dealing with such an individual.

As I finished thinking out loud about the basis of my negative reactions I realized that at their very core is the belief that all of us have the right to choose what we do and how we do it in our lives. My emotions are the result of feeling the contrast of people not allowing others to do so. But really by feeling these emotions and holding on to them I am being just as disallowing as the aggressor. Even if I am not responding with manipulation and anger by responding with negative emotion I am disallowing myself from the higher desire I launched due to my experience of this contrast i.e. creating a world in which we think, speak, and act out of our own highest self and allow and inspire another to do the same.

And like all thought this last thought is attractive. It has already given me ideas on how to deal with conflict at its seeds in a way that provides the space for each of us to voice and launch our own desires, without feeling the negative emotions of a disallower but instead the emotions of those who are source and are learning and reaching for a greater understanding towards the free world that I really want to create.

The truth of love

Anger


At the forceful passion with which you choose to control me.

At the right you feel you have over me.


Where is my independent voice? Where is the tickle in my soul? Where is the joy of the love you promised me?


Perhaps love is:


that which seeks to explain rather than to be known

that which heals and is healed rather than expects

that which encourages another's heart to find its truth and to live it...


even if that means living it alone.