How being with some people is the same as being alone

M didn't commiserate or sooth when I told him something was annoying me. Why bother with guys like that! Its like being alone with flirts thrown in, which if you have a healthy global sense of flirting is like being alone--with flirts thrown in.

Cherry picking desi men

Wanting to give myself more options in the dating life I am actually going to Facebook and cherry picking desi men. Helps me feel there is an abundance of choice out there. Well almost. When I a "married" status this morning I actually said "screw you, what's wrong with you," laughed and continued to cherry pick. LOL!

Rant: Sindhi closemindedness

Weirdness. My cousin emails me to tell me she is having her nikah--marriage contract signed with someone on Friday. All she tells me about the guy is that he is Punjabi from my dad's hood. Does nothing else matter to these people?! She is living in the west, you'd think ethnic close mindedness and Sindhi nationalism would leave by now. Her email does not make her sound any different from a girl in Pakistan.

Ugh.

I wonder if at some level I'd rather not hear from such mentally improvished family members.

Secret to getting it all--make someone else do it! :)

Yesterday I finished my client deliverable and took a break. But you know how it goes for most of us. Once we take that break we realize all those things we had been avoiding. The cleaning, the tidying up, the wired mangle running across the living room... And there goes the break as we then start the cleaning, the tidying, the separating of the mangled wires in the room.

There are some people who are quite comfortable with making living their work vision a priority. But making living your work vision a reality a priority often does not mean you want to give up having a beautiful organized space and you probably want to keep all the other wheels of the process turning. You want those new business cards followed up with. You want that email cleared. And gosh even the tidying up needs some logic which a cleaning service may not always put in.

We may say its brainless, its meditative. But there is nothing like having all these things done and being open to a few hours of serendipity. Here's the trick--we don't have to do it ourselves. I recently hired an assistant who takes pride in organizing my life even though her own can sometimes get very chaotic. I guess its just easier to see what helps someone else's life than your own. Also most of us pride ourselves in a job done to our internal satisfaction. Her internal satisfaction in seeing my life organized is so huge that she makes sure that the ball is never dropped (overall) . I love it!

I have an organized living room, work space, closet. And soon all the furniture to keep it that way without spending the countless brainless hours taking care of these things. If I were at this alone all this probably would not have happened or taken many months if not a year to get there.

Thank you Nora from the bottom of my heart!

Emotions tearing you? Love yourself.

Just had a great morning of contrast and resultant expansion. About 40 mins ago I was not flowing with the expansion. Meditating did not help me flow either. Turns out my ego was pulling me apart. A part of me wanted to believe I was right in behaving a certain way while that another part of me was guilting me for. The thought process that allowed this conflict was that sometimes one has to take a hard and difficult stance for justice. And the emotional after tearing is just part of that decision.

But today I realized that it doesn't have to be. Emotions are a result of thoughts. An emotion of guilt should be examined for any teaching it gives regarding whether an action should have been avoided or been better in some way. Once that examination has been made. Love and trust yourself. You are not bad. You are simply learning. Tell yourself to remember to use that learning in the next situation and then enjoy all that you have in this moment and all that you are doing and planning to do in this moment.

Love yourself. There is never a need for suffering.